Won't be anymore posts on baby #2

I haven't updated about it here yet, so, here goes...

Dec 8th, I went to the ER because no other doctors would see me. I had been spotting since mid November and started bleeding Dec 6th. We went and didn't get good news. The doctor examined me and we got an ultrasound. The doctor said I was slightly dilated and that there was no baby. I went in at 9 weeks, we were told everything stopped growing at 6 weeks. When we got our ultrasound, the tech wouldn't say a word. But I could see everything clearly. I could see the sac...but there wasn't a baby in there at all.

It was devastating. Still is most days. I don't understand it and I never will.

I was able to naturally miscarry at home. I have to go back, hopefully, one last time to get more blood drawn. Last they checked, my hcg leves were at 26. So they should be right where they need to be now.

We were so excited when we learned I was pregnant. We tried for just one month and we got pregnant right away. Just as fast as we got pregnant, all of a sudden it was over.

Now....I don't think I want another baby. I did at first, I was being as optimistic as possible when I was going through the miscarriage. But, if I ever have to go through that again, it will wreck me even more. Now, I'm leaning towards "one and done." Why test my luck again, right? I have one beautiful, smart, and healthy little 2yr old. She is more than enough. Silly me for thinking I wanted another one. Maybe it's just not in the cards for me. What will go wrong next time? Maybe I'll be further along and lose the baby. Maybe I'll die during labor, then neither of my kids will have a mother. So many things run through my mind about this.


I'm not sure what part of the healing process I'm in. Or if I'll change my mind about "one and done." Time will tell.

RIP baby T.E.S. xo

Baby #2 - Week 6

Today's date: November 21, 2014

How far along: 6 weeks

Total weight gain: 1lb

Size of the baby: 0.25 inches - size of a sweet pea :)

Sex: Too soon to tell!

Maternity clothes: None! ...yet. I live in leggings :)

Sleep: Sleeping well at night, until I am wide awake at odd hours of the night. Been waking up at 5am every morning, though.

Best moment(s) of the week: When Gabrielle kissed my belly! Also, out of nowhere (I was putting her boots on before we left to her gymnastics class) she said "love you, mommy!" Melted my heart, <3

Movement: Nadda.

Food cravings: Mac and Cheese, pasta, potatoes, and now pizza.

Food aversions: None this week. I haven't tried a grape since last week ;)

Morning sickness: Felt sick about 3 times this week. One time was pretty bad. I had to stop what I was doing, find a jolly rancher (all I have to ease the nausea) and go lay down and fall asleep. That was a close call!

Symptoms: Tired all the time. Little attitude going on. Dry right hand, what? I also had a little encounter with bleeding. I was a little crampy one day and when I went pee, I wiped and there was a little blood. Just dull looking. I kept wiping and a little clot was on my tissue. That scared me. But no further blood has shown up. :)

Labor signs: Too soon.

Belly button in or out: In.

What I miss: not feeling like I'm PMSing 24/7 :)

What I'm looking forward to: Thanksgiving!

Baby #2 - Week 5

Yay! My mini joined in this time like I visioned in my head. ;)

Today's date: November 13, 2014

How far along: 5 weeks

Total weight gain: 1lb

Size of the baby: 0.13 inches - size of an apple seed :)

Sex: Too soon to tell!

Maternity clothes: None! ...yet. My pants are getting tighter, though.

Sleep: Sleeping well at night, until I am wide awake at odd hours of the night. Been waking up at 5am every morning, though.

Best moment(s) of the week: When I put Gabrielle to sleep, I always lay beside her and I rub my belly and say hi to the new baby.

Movement: Nadda.

Food cravings: Mac and Cheese, pasta, potatoes. Carbs!!

Food aversions: Grapes. Makes me feel like I need to throw up, ew!

Morning sickness: I have only felt sick maybe 2 times this week. It can continue on like that the whole way through, if it wants!

Symptoms: Tired all the time. Little attitude going on. Dry right hand, what?

Labor signs: Too soon.

Belly button in or out: In.

What I miss: Coffee

What I'm looking forward to: My birthday! On Saturday :) 


See my picture at 5 weeks when I was pregnant with Gabrielle; Week 5 with Gabrielle

Baby #2 - Week 4

I had every intention on having Gabby hold the sign and be sitting up on the bed. She wasn't feeling it until she saw me taking a few pictures, running back and forth, then she wanted to be in it...just not holding the sign still haha. So as you can see, I had to prop the sign up on pillows. I'm sure this won't be the last time I have to do it this way. I would love for her to be in every photo, but if she doesn't want to, I won't make her. :)

Now, onto the survey.

Today's date: November 4, 2014

How far along: 4 weeks

Total weight gain: Not sure yet. I just weighed myself so I will answer this next week. :)

Size of the baby: less than .1in ; size of a poppy seed.  

Sex: Too soon to tell!

Maternity clothes: None. Still just regular clothes but I can feel my pants are already getting tighter. Whaaat.

Sleep: mild insomnia. Otherwise, sleeping good. 

Best moment(s) of the week: Finding out I was pregnant! Got my BFP November 3, 2014!!

Movement: too soon.

Food cravings: pasta with red sauce--not like spaghetti sauce--but like a good vodka sauce. My grams MAC and cheese, I make it at least once a week! Also wanting veggies.

Food aversions: Not all that obsessed with coffee like I usually am. But that's ok, caffeine is a no-no during the 1st trimester, for me, anyway. 

Morning sickness: I get nauseas every now and again. Nothing too crazy.

Symptoms: exhausted! Dizzy, forgetful, already in nesting mode--I swear! & i've experienced the metal taste in my mouth a few times.

Labor signs: Too soon.

Belly button in or out: In.

What I miss:  my coffee/caffeine addiction lol

What I'm looking forward to: Our first doctors appointment (December 18th) when they will be able to give me a better due date and how far along I really am. I'm just winging it but we think this will be an early July 2015 baby :) 

I decided to not show belly just yet. As I am still chubby from my first pregnancy, plus when I stopped breastfeeding, I gained about 10lbs. Yikes. So I'm starting this pregnancy 14lbs heavier than last time. Once I actually look pregnant, I'll do a few bare belly shots. :)

4 Week Pregnancy Vlog: (TMI INFO)

Oh, in-case you missed it:

Sunday Funday

What a fun day!

We started off with Church and then packed up our pumpkins and headed to the park. We brought Gabby's Jeep so she could play with it with her cousin. Hubby and I ended up doing the pumpkins while Gabby played. It was hubby's first time carving pumpkins! Crazy right? I thought so.

It was such a nice afternoon and Gabby had a lot of fun.

Now we are relaxing watching the Packers game. Gabby is already asleep because, once again, she didn't nap today! 

No nap & late bed time sort of day

I tried to get her to nap, honest I did. 

We woke up late this morning. I really need to set the alarm on my phone to ring louder. She usually goes down for a nap at 1pm. Not today. She didn't fall asleep until we went on a little drive to find a park.

 I drove us back home because that park was closed...didn't get there until after 5pm. At home we played a bit and it was time for her to go to sleep. She's usually sleeping by 830pm. Not tonight. She didn't want to go to sleep tonight. Finally she fell asleep by 930pm.

 I then parked myself on the couch and watched The Purge: Anarchy. It was decent but not as good as the first one. I'm exhausted and still not feeling the greatest. I was going to film tonight but today didn't go as planned. Hope to get some filming done this weekend. 

Tomorrow we are going to the pumpkin patch! Will definitely vlog it. :) 

So upset that it was time for bed!!

This was our Tuesday

This morning we did a few learning activities. I'm starting (or, have started) preschool at home. Just something fun for both of us to do and I love watching how her little mind works! We are redoing letter A, since our vacation kind of put us on hold. 

I'm working on figuring out how she likes to learn best. I'm doing this (preschool at home) very laid back, flexible, and fun!

Before her gymnastics class, she had some fun with daddy. & I got to run! It has honestly been awhile. I haven't been feeling the greatest (think I caught a bug during vacation) so I thought a run would help. It did! 

Afterwards, she got to go to her tumbling class. Why so serious, Gabe?!

Back to the hole!

We got home on Friday night.

We had so much fun on our vacation but missed the hubby. We didn't get to see him until Saturday.

More pictures from the vacay:

 First stop in Vegas was to a Filipino restaurant! So. So. So. GOOD.

 I finally got to try my hubby's favorite drink/food: Halo Halo! It was super delicious. It's ice cream, shaved ice, beans, and some other things I'm not sure of.

 Went and checked into our hotel, the Luxor, rested and went out on the town.

 The next day we went on to Arizona and visited my family. Gabby and V finally see each other again! They were the best of friends and remembered right where they left off. They tried on shoes and had tickle fights. It was adorable!

 My grandparents and MIL. Gabby and I of course!

 The next day, we headed to the Grand Canyon West and got to ride a helicopter over the Grand Canyon! It was amazing. Our flight was about 15min long. It was so much fun. Once in a lifetime. Gabby did great with it. At first, she was a little scared, but soon got the hang of it. Afterwards she kept saying "Up! Down!" and moving her hands in the air up and down.

  We also did the Sky Walk!

Sad story about the blanket you see this pretty little child sleeping on so peacefully.  Guess who left it at the Luxor? This mommy did. :( She has had it since she was a newborn. Loved it. Smelled it constantly. Slept with it every nap and each night. No other blanket compares. We left early Tuesday morning and I'm guessing it was still tangled up in the sheets in the bed. I didn't realize I left it until we were long gone. I contacted the Luxor and filled out the Lost and Found form. They emailed me back almost immediately saying they have not found the blanket. I feel like the worst mom ever.

1st day in the books

We made it to Vegas! And have left already. Now visiting with my family until Thursday morning. Thursday morning we are planning on visiting the Sky Walk, and heading back to Vegas for the night. Our flight leves Friday afternoon. 

I did a horrible thing. I left Gabby's favorite blanket (she's had it since she was born) in the Luxor hotel room. I guess I didn't see it as we were packing in the morning. She sleeps with it every night, I think it was mixed up in the blankets on the bed. I feel terrible about it. Breaks my heart. I called the hotel twice and each time I get sent to the lost and found line but no one answers. They have a recording saying I need to fill out the form online and hopefully they have it and should be able to send it to is. Fingers crossed. 

A few pictures

When we first arrived :)

Halo Halo! Hubby's fave food. I finally got to try it! So delicious! 

Stayed at the Luxor Hotel!

View from our room :)

My body is still on our time zone. I'm exhausted! 

Viva Las Vegas

If you're reading this, I'm probably either on a layover in Tennessee or already in Vegas! Gabby, myself, and my In-Laws (hubby has to stay to work :( ) are heading out west for a little vacation. We will be spending Monday in Vegas and heading to Arizona on Tuesday morning. Our flight leaves super early on Monday, around 5am. So I won't be getting much sleep come Sunday night..we have to leave the house at 2am to get to the airport on time, waaahh. First Starbucks I can get my hands on, will be mine!

I'm excited to see my grandparents again. We are hoping to make it to the Grand Canyon as well. They have the Sky Walk that my in-laws would like to check out.

For now, editing, sleeping sometime soon, church on Sunday, last minute packing afterwards, and hopefully a couple hours sleep. See you in Vegas!

Adventures

We had spent the previous day indoors waiting and waiting for a MAC collection to launch. This is all my fault. My poor little lady. She was such a trooper and we did keep busy. The following day, I thought it would be good to get out and get some fresh air. We ended up here:

 Such a nice view. The place we went to go down to see the water, had A LOT of spider webs. I don't think anyone has been down this way in a long time.

 She wanted to hold my hand, aw.

 Mean muggin' G!
Unfortunately, she was not feeling the greatest. I didn't find that out until after her nap...which happened once we got home.

 Fun fact: M and I took maternity photos here when I was pregnant with G. :)

 Checking out what was falling from the tree. Acorns.

 I tried zooming in on this picture, well on her face, because she was mean muggin' again!

 She thought it was funny. :)

Until next time!