Won't be anymore posts on baby #2

I haven't updated about it here yet, so, here goes...

Dec 8th, I went to the ER because no other doctors would see me. I had been spotting since mid November and started bleeding Dec 6th. We went and didn't get good news. The doctor examined me and we got an ultrasound. The doctor said I was slightly dilated and that there was no baby. I went in at 9 weeks, we were told everything stopped growing at 6 weeks. When we got our ultrasound, the tech wouldn't say a word. But I could see everything clearly. I could see the sac...but there wasn't a baby in there at all.

It was devastating. Still is most days. I don't understand it and I never will.

I was able to naturally miscarry at home. I have to go back, hopefully, one last time to get more blood drawn. Last they checked, my hcg leves were at 26. So they should be right where they need to be now.

We were so excited when we learned I was pregnant. We tried for just one month and we got pregnant right away. Just as fast as we got pregnant, all of a sudden it was over.

Now....I don't think I want another baby. I did at first, I was being as optimistic as possible when I was going through the miscarriage. But, if I ever have to go through that again, it will wreck me even more. Now, I'm leaning towards "one and done." Why test my luck again, right? I have one beautiful, smart, and healthy little 2yr old. She is more than enough. Silly me for thinking I wanted another one. Maybe it's just not in the cards for me. What will go wrong next time? Maybe I'll be further along and lose the baby. Maybe I'll die during labor, then neither of my kids will have a mother. So many things run through my mind about this.


I'm not sure what part of the healing process I'm in. Or if I'll change my mind about "one and done." Time will tell.

RIP baby T.E.S. xo

Baby #2 - Week 6

Today's date: November 21, 2014

How far along: 6 weeks

Total weight gain: 1lb

Size of the baby: 0.25 inches - size of a sweet pea :)

Sex: Too soon to tell!

Maternity clothes: None! ...yet. I live in leggings :)

Sleep: Sleeping well at night, until I am wide awake at odd hours of the night. Been waking up at 5am every morning, though.

Best moment(s) of the week: When Gabrielle kissed my belly! Also, out of nowhere (I was putting her boots on before we left to her gymnastics class) she said "love you, mommy!" Melted my heart, <3

Movement: Nadda.

Food cravings: Mac and Cheese, pasta, potatoes, and now pizza.

Food aversions: None this week. I haven't tried a grape since last week ;)

Morning sickness: Felt sick about 3 times this week. One time was pretty bad. I had to stop what I was doing, find a jolly rancher (all I have to ease the nausea) and go lay down and fall asleep. That was a close call!

Symptoms: Tired all the time. Little attitude going on. Dry right hand, what? I also had a little encounter with bleeding. I was a little crampy one day and when I went pee, I wiped and there was a little blood. Just dull looking. I kept wiping and a little clot was on my tissue. That scared me. But no further blood has shown up. :)

Labor signs: Too soon.

Belly button in or out: In.

What I miss: not feeling like I'm PMSing 24/7 :)

What I'm looking forward to: Thanksgiving!

Baby #2 - Week 5

Yay! My mini joined in this time like I visioned in my head. ;)

Today's date: November 13, 2014

How far along: 5 weeks

Total weight gain: 1lb

Size of the baby: 0.13 inches - size of an apple seed :)

Sex: Too soon to tell!

Maternity clothes: None! ...yet. My pants are getting tighter, though.

Sleep: Sleeping well at night, until I am wide awake at odd hours of the night. Been waking up at 5am every morning, though.

Best moment(s) of the week: When I put Gabrielle to sleep, I always lay beside her and I rub my belly and say hi to the new baby.

Movement: Nadda.

Food cravings: Mac and Cheese, pasta, potatoes. Carbs!!

Food aversions: Grapes. Makes me feel like I need to throw up, ew!

Morning sickness: I have only felt sick maybe 2 times this week. It can continue on like that the whole way through, if it wants!

Symptoms: Tired all the time. Little attitude going on. Dry right hand, what?

Labor signs: Too soon.

Belly button in or out: In.

What I miss: Coffee

What I'm looking forward to: My birthday! On Saturday :) 


See my picture at 5 weeks when I was pregnant with Gabrielle; Week 5 with Gabrielle

Baby #2 - Week 4

I had every intention on having Gabby hold the sign and be sitting up on the bed. She wasn't feeling it until she saw me taking a few pictures, running back and forth, then she wanted to be in it...just not holding the sign still haha. So as you can see, I had to prop the sign up on pillows. I'm sure this won't be the last time I have to do it this way. I would love for her to be in every photo, but if she doesn't want to, I won't make her. :)

Now, onto the survey.

Today's date: November 4, 2014

How far along: 4 weeks

Total weight gain: Not sure yet. I just weighed myself so I will answer this next week. :)

Size of the baby: less than .1in ; size of a poppy seed.  

Sex: Too soon to tell!

Maternity clothes: None. Still just regular clothes but I can feel my pants are already getting tighter. Whaaat.

Sleep: mild insomnia. Otherwise, sleeping good. 

Best moment(s) of the week: Finding out I was pregnant! Got my BFP November 3, 2014!!

Movement: too soon.

Food cravings: pasta with red sauce--not like spaghetti sauce--but like a good vodka sauce. My grams MAC and cheese, I make it at least once a week! Also wanting veggies.

Food aversions: Not all that obsessed with coffee like I usually am. But that's ok, caffeine is a no-no during the 1st trimester, for me, anyway. 

Morning sickness: I get nauseas every now and again. Nothing too crazy.

Symptoms: exhausted! Dizzy, forgetful, already in nesting mode--I swear! & i've experienced the metal taste in my mouth a few times.

Labor signs: Too soon.

Belly button in or out: In.

What I miss:  my coffee/caffeine addiction lol

What I'm looking forward to: Our first doctors appointment (December 18th) when they will be able to give me a better due date and how far along I really am. I'm just winging it but we think this will be an early July 2015 baby :) 

I decided to not show belly just yet. As I am still chubby from my first pregnancy, plus when I stopped breastfeeding, I gained about 10lbs. Yikes. So I'm starting this pregnancy 14lbs heavier than last time. Once I actually look pregnant, I'll do a few bare belly shots. :)

4 Week Pregnancy Vlog: (TMI INFO)

Oh, in-case you missed it:

Sunday Funday

What a fun day!

We started off with Church and then packed up our pumpkins and headed to the park. We brought Gabby's Jeep so she could play with it with her cousin. Hubby and I ended up doing the pumpkins while Gabby played. It was hubby's first time carving pumpkins! Crazy right? I thought so.

It was such a nice afternoon and Gabby had a lot of fun.

Now we are relaxing watching the Packers game. Gabby is already asleep because, once again, she didn't nap today!